The ever popular: 30 Days of Kink
Q: Any early experiences that, in retrospect, hint at your kinks?
A: My response may offend, or even repulse some. I wanted to be as honest as possible, and didn’t want to make up a memory, or lead anyone to believe that I was an innocent child. Not in any stretch of the imagination.
I do have one particular memory in mind. I read rather mature magazines as a young girl. I first read Teen and Cosmo Girl around the age of 10. I liked reading the articles on fashion, make up, and relationships. It made me feel grown up to read those kind of magazines.
One article in particular stays with me to this day. It was based on an interview of a young woman who was molested and raped by her father. It was my first introduction to sex, even though it was obviously non-consensual, but I couldn’t get it out of my mind. I remember reading it for the first time, and reading it again, and again. I won’t deny that it aroused me. At that age I couldn’t even imagine how I would feel if it had happened to me.
I didn’t want to be molested, and I don’t want to be raped, but I eroticized the power of the father. It’s one of the first masturbatory scenarios I actually remember. The control, and abuse of power of the scenario turned me on. I believe the article sparked fantasies of rape, and gives some explanation to why I choose to engage in Daddy/little girl play scenes.